I Dive In

The streets fail to exist at this hour of the night
Posing strangers under a starry sky
Yet there seems to be no one here to hear my screams
I seem to be scared of my soul
I bounce and try to regain control
Swivel and swerve through air and sin
I stop, rewind, can’t remember how it played
At the fringe of reason, staring in blindness
“don’t play with fire” they say
While I dissolve in flames
To be able to sense our own senses
Be surprised at what we find
And regain what was never lost
Across the sea there’s another planet
Another home, another place
My trembling spirit abandons itself to the water
And I forget to breathe
I can only feel
I forget to think
I can only feel
My hands shake at the invisible outlines of the future
Trying to retrace them with my eyes
I forget to exist
I search around. I hear a distant scream. It’s mine. 
I feel I can touch. I can connect.
Tears stream up
I had forgotten to be this alive
The streets light up, dawn is here
Words become faces in the impossibility of chance
It’s so clear now. I dive in.